Monday, 8 February 2016

Diary of an Honest Naturalista: Week 140


I’ve been very moody and melancholic of late. I can’t seem to pinpoint what exactly is wrong. But I am seeing gloom in everything I look at. Maybe that’s what affected the way I was viewing my relationship last week. I’m just not happy. Maybe it’s the whole downward economy saga. Maybe it is because January was generally a slow month, and February hasn’t picked up yet. Even the small sales of my Ankara handcraft that I’ve had by the side, I sold absolutely nothing in January. I’ve been totally idle, we’ve not been very busy at the office. I’m just tired and bored of everything.

As if everything isn’t bad enough, there’s some other guy seriously on my case. He sees me like an angel walking on gold. Dimeji knows absolutely nothing about him, but he knows I have a boyfriend. That doesn’t seem to bother him though, he still thinks he has a chance with me. My fault was that I left a loophole for the guy to get to me, and then it got a bit complicated in my mind.

We met when he came to my place of work for a meeting with Yemisi. And then, he fell in love with my hair, which was in a very calm Mohawk. We exchanged numbers, and then started talking.

This is something I wouldn’t give room for on a normal day, but I felt I needed something to spice up this boring phase of my life. Big mistake!

The guy has just the right things to say. He’s tall and handsome, very financially stable, well-spoken, ready to settle down, a Christian, and worships the ground I walk on. He’s just everything. What kind of problem is this?

Maybe it is even because of him that I started wondering why Dimeji is dragging his feet in proposing. I find myself hiding things from Dimeji lately. I now delete messages and call logs, and lightly cover things up when he’s wondering why my phone has been busy for such a long time. The irony is that Dimeji doesn’t even check my phones, but I just don’t want to give any chance to him finding out about the other guy, even if I’m not cheating on him.

I will admit that I like talking to the guy. I look forward to his calls, though I know I can’t give the guy what he wants because I don’t plan to cheat on Dimeji or leave him.

Paul Rudd
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Maybe it’s just a phase, and my desire for companionship with the guy will fizzle out when this phase is over. Or maybe it is just an indication of something missing in my life. I just don’t know. But for now, it is what it is. And I will live with it that way.

21 comments :

  1. Ask Dimeji upfront where he sees this relationship going in the next year and what his intensions are. Keep your options open, nobody has time to waste with a purposeless relationship.

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  2. Try to stop talking to the new guy and concentrate on your relationship with Dimeji.You may be already cheating on him emotionally.

    www.wurassecrethair.blogspot.com

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  3. Anna you have started cheating on dimeji for the record. Since you have started deleting messages, call logs.. smell the coffee young lady you are doing something wrong. Need i remind you that if that guy knows you have a boyfriend and cant respect that even though you are the one giving him green light... hmmmmm
    Aunty please just take some time and rethink your actions.

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    1. I totally agree to this. Talking from experience though.

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    2. Hmm. Maybe the guy found a loophole in Anna's weakness. Maybe she's still naive and learning.

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    3. @Omolara: I hope yours didn't end up badly. :(

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  4. At this point in your life, you need all the attention you can get.
    Maybe D needs to spice things up in the relationship. You both need to rediscover yourselves.

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    1. Let's find out how she can communicate her needs to Dimeji. You know they ain't married yet sha.

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  5. I feel like it's wives connection up in here. LOL *eats popcorn*

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    1. You and your popcorn sha. Please give Anna some.

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  6. I feel like it's wives connection up in here. LOL *eats popcorn*

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  7. run Anna run! run Anna run!where there is smoke , there s fire. and Chidiebere is right. what self respecting man will be fine with you being someone elses woman and still have good intentions for you? run Anna run!

    Mvumikazi ~ Urban Mnguni ~

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    1. Lol. Your sound of alarm is so loud. I guess Anna would have no choice but to listen to you.

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    2. Very true @URBAN MNGUNI she needs to borrow legs and run

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  8. Hmmm..no comment. I'm not yet in a relationship. So.. *quietly exits room*

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    1. Doesn't matter jo. Single people sometimes give the best advice since they are not jaded.

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